MY FIRTS LOVE

         

              My mature cells started grow, there was no more childish or weeping in my life now. Yes, I grew to be a teenager who was mature or we could say I was not like a baby again . The proof were I could take a bath, choose my clothes , ate and went to school by my self. I was a student in Bina Bakti Cirebon senior high school. I didn’t have good marks too. Might be I was lucky. A lucky which could make my life be more exciting and funny like now.

          Love never knew about understand, why did I like him? Why always wanted to be near with him? Yes, it was love, like what I felt. I felt strange when I was near with him. My body was always sweating.  Was is love? Was I fall in love with him? It was something in my mind this time.

“ Hai, what are you doing alone here? And why are you smiling like that?” asked Rian

“ Rian, hmmmmm nothing!” said me while closed my laptop

“ Why you close it ? is there something?”

“ Hmmmm No, the battery is low ”

“ are you sure??”

“ ya, up to you”

“ ecieee, are you angry?”

“ of course not. I am good girl. A good girl dont alllow to be angry and I am cute too. Hehehe  ”

“ who say?”

“ me and my mother”

“ Oke, you are cute like a hamster. Hehehehe :-P..”

“ Hhhhhhh, no like fairy :-P ”

         

          “ Oh my God, my heart is beating. I want to be with him every day. God, Do I like him? ” said me in my heave

          In the next morning, like usually I went to school. It was my priority as student. I felt lucky. I could be student because there were so many people who could not be like me. I also could get so many, new friend and new knowledge. Like usually I went to library and always meet him.

          The time was running, I was so close with him. Every day we always meet in the library. We chatted together. His smile change my world. His cheer, smile, knowledge and every thing he had made me felt comfortable.

Until one day, the cheering change to be sadness. Sudenly, his behavior became so strange. He never care with other, always alone, silent, and never cheer up. His smile, I never cheer up. I dont know what happen with him.

Every day, I always saw him from long distance. Until one morning, I came to Rian who was sitting alone on the bench in the park while he read book.

“ Hai Rian... !” I greeted him

“Hai.....” answered Rian

“ May I sit here?”

“Sure...”

“mmm, Rian, I have a new book. It is Smudra Al-Fatiha book. Do you want read it?”

“No, thanks”

“ Why? You like reading, right? It is a good book. It is about...”

“ Hemmm, bintang , woulud you like to go from here? I want to be alone.”

“What happen with you? You are so strange. Is there anyproblem? You can tell me. Maybe I can help you ”

“Nothing. I just want to be alone”

“Okey, I want go but always smile.”

          Since that time, I was more currious. Why he always alone? He also always hurry up to go home. I would like to follow him when he went home. Until one day, I saw him met a man and woman who were about 45 years old in a florist.

“ Dad, what are you doing here?” asked rian

“ It is not your business. What ever I want to do”answer rian’s father

“ Why you with this woman? Do you have forgotten mom?”

“It is up to me. Your mother have gone. I want to look for a new wife, beautiful wife”

“ Dad, mom just die. It is not too good if you do this”

“ Listen! It is not your business. Who are you? You want to control me? You are only my adopted child”

“ Ya, I know it. But dont be like this. Where is daddy who always love me?”

“ Enough, come on honey. We must go.”

“Dad.. Daddy...”screamed Rian

          After that, Rian’s heart break. He never thougt that his father would do this. He bought a flower and visit his mother’s grave. Although, the rain was swift, he went to his mother’s grave arrived there.

“Good evening Mom, how are you? Are you happy there? I miss you. I miss your warm hugging, are you miss me too? Mom, I am alone here. I am tired with all Mom, to know the reality. The reality if I just your adopted child ”said Rian

          In the other side, I just saw from a long distance and I shocked to know that thing. I was so sympathy with him. I would come to him.

“ Bintang!”

“Rian, are you okey?”

He just silent. Suddenly he huged me and cried

“You are tired?”

“Yes, Iam tired”answered him

“I understand what a feel. You can cry if it make you feel better”

          Rian cried his lost his full sadness. In the next morning, I invited him go to an orphanage.

“Why you bring me to this place?”asked Rian

“ Look at them. They look so happy to play. It seems like they don’t have any problem in their life. Whereas, I belived that in they heart, they want feel a love from their parents. But , they still keep spirit and cheer up. They can accept the reality. You must like them. Please, be Rian who I know before. Reach your dream. If you want to be success. I belive your mother will proud of you.”answer me

“Yes, you are right. When, I see them, I realize. I am more lucky than them. I must be cheer up.”

“Yes, that’s good”

“ Bintang thanks for today. You have made me feel better and can make me smile again”

“Your welcome. Whatever anything happen to you. Don’t be afraid. I will always in your side ”